Shame

It is a powerful thing to feel as though something you are  doing is shameful.

I recently had a chance to take my meta’s niece out for an activity, with my girlfriend

It was awkward, as the child’s parents have no idea as to my girlfriend and I’s relationship

This is due to a requirement from my meta that their family be kept in the dark.

Difficult situation to be in, but I love taking kids out for new experiences, and it allowed me to get
A short while with my partner... even if we had to pretend we didn’t like each other.

It was going well until the young kiddo asked if we were boyfriend....  this is where the shame
Sets in.  I was forced to lie to a child, to protect a secret that I don’t believe in.

I feel shame for lying to that kiddo... and I feel like I am a point of shame , as I must be a secret

Feelings will be processed...